expecting winds of change

times are now showing clues of change....the changes now should happen for good. These coming two months will tell how much my life will change. Its now time that will either make it....or break it... Destiny is to now give results ...... will my dedication pay me back or will it all go un noticed ????? there are some questions which can not be answered.....but there are some which can be inferred... but still... assumptions are never always benefited. I have stopped living in a dream.. Expectations are not as much....i have now learnt to give my best shot and not expect anything in return....just my credit ......

Praying that things work out and winds blow in my direction........ :)

Fight against myself.

Just a month away from making a decision that'll most probably change my life.. Either I'll make it the way I had always dreamt about....or I'll make it my worst nightmare come true. The most important factor being my guy...or rather the guy I have taken to be as my guy...the one on to whom I've happily sacrificed more or less everything, is not helping me or supporting me. He....just like my father is around 24*7...but is suddenly missing when he is needed the most. I have been left alone to make a choice and upon this choice will the rest of my life depend. Although there is another major factor which will be mandatory....but still...I'm preparing myself for it. I was pondering over this for a long time now...that is it because of my whining and pining that I end up making the wrong choices ? Maybe yes. Why I am so sensitive towards some things in life...I'm still struggling to find the answers.
My mom says that when in distress...listen to what your mind has to say...don't listen to your heart. Heart will always see the short-term....but your mind will always analyze the present and the future. I don't say it is difficult...but yes...it is not easy also. I ask myself sometimes...Will I be able to live in this stress all my life ???? Will I be able to live with someone who will refuse to accommodate space for me ??? Space for my dreams...for my choices...for my desires???????
With someone who will always be derogatory ??? Mind says ..''NO''....''get away from it...it'll marr your confidence and it won't let you bloom...'' .................. heart says...''stick around baby..love him so much..that one day you'll mould him in to your color."
Dealing with this war going inside you all the time is quite a task....especially when you are a light headed female who tends to loose her cool more than just often.
What will I do ???? Dragging on with something which practically is showing no probability of a future is futile...it is waste of time..energy and everything.
I ask you..... kiski sunu ?? dil ki...ya dimaag ki ??? dono ki baatei bahot convincing hai... dono apni jagah bilkul sahi hai...

crazy truths..

Things are not always the way they look like or seem like.. Most of the times....the most obvious point remains hidden beneath the layers ....and the one least prominent...comes up...and we humans... we believe in what we see.. ... ... ... ... confused ????? i know..

Well...let me explain..

The whole idea about me bragging is that when we are confused about our priorities...we screw up...BIGTYM..
but there sure are many kind of pple....one who can lie to everyone...second..who can lie to everyone including their own self...and one who know the truth but choose to live in a fool's paradise.. Its a little weird...but its true.. Anyone who is struggling with their ownselves will easily be able to comprehend what i'm trying to say...

The best way to handle this turmoil is to be a braveheart and accept the truth... but the side-effect of this Alexander Act will be that you'll be even more frustrated and will blame yourself for trying to force urself into the sun....but one in a hundred words...the harsh thing here is that have faith in your own self...and believe in just one fact that your destiny surely has something really good for you. Whoever wants to leave you and move away...let him/her go...if their name is written in your fate...no one can take them away from you...but if they arent destined to be with you...no one on Mother Earth can get them for you....

Cheers... !